Facing the Giants.
So this post is about two things which come together... I hope!!!
Our church AGM was on Thursday night and as usual our Pastor started it off with a devotional. This year it was based around 1 Samuel 17 - where David has arrived to the site of the big battle to find out no one is willing to face the giant Goliath.
As part of one of his points, the Pastor talked about Saul talking a good fight, and trying to give David his armour to wear, but not actually being willing to fight the fight himself. He pointed out that we can do this too, telling people what we think they should do, but not doing anything ourselves. He also mentioned how God equips us all differently and so really the only person wearing our armour for the battle should be us. This REALLY got me thinking.
You see I am very good at telling other people what I think they should do. Whether it comes as a friendly conversation, directions in work or advice to someone I'm helping to disciple, I have lots of ideas of what will help them and solve their issues... Yet I'm not ready to do anything about my own.
If you happen to be blessed to know me personally ( and yes that's sarcasm - blessed is not what you'd be!!!) you will know that I have lots of issues. From my weight, my issues with food, my inability to keep on top of my house and my habit of never finishing anything... I definitely have lots of things I need to work on in my life. But it's just so much easier talking about someone else's life.
And I'm not talking about this in a 'take the log out of my eye before I help you take the speck out of yours' way. I'm talking about having a heart to genuinely help people to grow and to face their giants, but finding that actually I do this sometimes because it's easier than facing my OWN giants.
If you think about it it makes perfect sense. If I am helping someone else to get over an addiction or an issue in their life it is because it's so much easier to do that than to admit that I am struggling with my own addiction to food. I can give them all the advice I wish I could take... but am too scared to try. I spout off the verses that I know will help them through - but that I don't want to let into my soul because I know the change that will come.
But God gave me these thoughts, strategies and verses to get MY life in order, to really focus on Him and to give Him the glory. I'm not saying I can't use them to also help others, but I need to be honest enough to know that I need them first. He doesn't want me to stay stuck in this hole, facing a giant that He's already beaten, just because I'm scared of what will change in my life.
For me it's simple. I can't remember a time when I was slim, fit and healthy, and I panic at the thought of being that now. I know that it may bring more attention as people watch me change, whereas I am happy right now to sit in the background and be the 'cheery fat girl'. It will mean that I automatically will need to do more - from simple, wonderful things like go swimming with my boys on a Friday night, to things like feeling obligated to do some things to help other people which I'm incapable of doing at the size I'm at now.
So I'm happy to stay fat, unhealthy and unfit. Because I fear change and the victory. I let that fear be the giant I'm telling everyone else to beat, while I sit back in my tent and watch.
But God has already beaten ALL of our giants. No matter whether it's something big like addiction, weight, fear, self-confidence, or something smaller like the wall that seems to rise up at my front door if I ever try to go talk a short walk... He has beaten them all and through Him we have the VICTORY!! We can truly face every giant and be the conqueror, just like David.
"For the Lord your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you
against your enemies to give you victory."
All through God.
So back to the beginning...
'Facing the Giants' is one of my favourite Christian movies. It's an amazing film by the team that also brought us Fireproof, Courageous and War Room films and is a definite to put on your 'to watch' list. Yes, it's about a college Amercian football team, but it is about so much more than that. You are literally yearning for them to go that extra mile at one point, and you want everything to work out. It's about the power of prayer, trusting in God no matter what's going on around you and learning that in Him all things are possible.
So if you get a chance to watch it, or if you've already seen it, comment and tell me what you thought of it - and let's get facing these giants together.
Keep shining xx