This week is a big week for me. I have a nice big birthday at the end of the week and I'm mega-excited!! But as I was thinking through this week, it's aims, goals and plans, this song was playing In the background and it really struck me.
The lyrics really spoke to me (they always do) as I'm about to hit the big 4-0 on Friday.
I have now been on this earth for 40 years. That's a heck of a long time so this year has really made me think much more about life, it's purpose and my plans. I'll be talking a bit more about this later in the week, but the one thing I have to keep remembering is that I am not on my own. I don't know what tomorrow will bring - I have no idea what ways my life will change, or stay the same, in the year to come. But I do know who holds my future. My life is safe in my Father's hands - He has me and thankfully He sees the big picture. He sees what has to happen in my life for the tapestry to make sense and for the glory to go to Him. I can rest assured in the fact that ...
I think I may be having a slight mid-life crisis as I start to consider my life and what I'm doing with it - for instance I'm beginning to think that things like jumping out of an aeroplane, abseiling down the Europa or getting my ears pierced for a second time sound like fantastic ideas! I start to think about my life and get a little down - have I done what I wanted to? Have I achieved what I set out to do 20 years ago when I was in university? Or did life get in the way?
Whatever plans I had for my life - whether they have come to fruition or not - I have come to realise that there is no point in worrying over what ifs - I chose to put my trust in God - resting in the knowledge that He alone can take my life and create something beautiful that will honour Him. This is part of the reason I love butterflies so much - God is still working in me and one day I'll be able to spread my wings and fly bringing Him glory.
"Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time.
He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so,
people cannot see the whole scope of
At this point in my life I can sing this with a truthful heart. No matter what life throws at me, I know that God's grave is sufficient to help me overcome any and all of my weaknesses. No matter what battle - whether it's with food, alcohol, drugs, sex or anything else - I know that when I come to God with my hands outstretched, and with a humble heart, He is there to give me all the strength and power I need to make it through.
"Each time he said, "My grace is all you need.
My power works best in weakness." So now I
am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that
the power of Christ can work through me."
2 Corinthians 2:9
Finally, I have realised that the only thing worth holding onto in this life is God. There isn't any amount of money or things that could satisfy your soul and give you the peace that God gives when we cling to Him. It took me a while to get this, as I clung to my books, my shopping, my family and my church - but nothing I hold on to now except Jesus.
I hope you all have a fabulous week and keep shining as you hold fast to Jesus xx