Wednesday, 31 May 2017

Conversations

So the combination of prompt questions and daily verses I got this morning was this... 


  • What conversation do I need to have that I’ve been putting off?
  • What am I scared of that has prevented me from having this conversation?


Ok then! So I've been thinking all day about any hard conversations I need to have. To be honest (and I really do try to be both honest and as transparent as I can be in this) there aren't any coming to mind yet. But I'm still praying through it. 


However, on a slightly different topic, I had one of the most freeing conversations of my life last week. During one of my counselling sessions we talked and she encouraged me to explain my thinking about a certain thing more clearly. What a challenge... 


Wow! This completely opened the flood gates as I sat and explored the subject we were discussing. It is amazing the clarity you get when you open up and talk about issues you just assumed you were ok with. I believed things about myself (from now and from years ago) that were totally wrong. Yet I believed them totally and utterly. 


Talking about them was so freeing. Saying them out loud made me start to question my sanity - how on earth could I be that stupid as to believe this stuff? And then hearing me try to rationalise my thoughts made me cry even harder! It's hard hearing the words out loud but so so empowering. 


Sometimes the person we hate the most is ourselves. Let's change that - not so that we love ourselves in a conceited way, but so that we can rejoice in the women that God created us to be and in the beautiful bodies He gave us. 



So my advice - have a conversation - whether to a counsellor, a best friend or a family member - or even to yourself in the mirror. And of course, the most important conversation needs to take place between you and God and let Him tell you exactly how amazing you are. 


Keep shining xx 

Tuesday, 30 May 2017

Silver linings

When things inevitably don’t go my way today, how can I respond with optimism to overcome adversity?


This is a great question! Life has a way of messing with you - just when you think you have everything sussed. Whether it's a flat tyre when you're late for work, a washing machine that breaks down when you've just forked out money for a new bed or a necessary change in job when you've finally settled into your work place. 


As Christians we believe that God is in control - no matter what life in this sinful world throws at us. This brings me so much comfort - I really don't know how anyone does life without God by their side. 


But it can still be painful when we get rejected or 'let go' or find ourselves in difficulty. So how do we come out the other side stronger and with the victory we know we have in Jesus? 


Seeing positivity in negative situations is a great way of turning obstacles into opportunities. 


It means that each situation is an opportunity to rely more and trust God, to show His love to those around us, to prove Him in the face of our doubts and to tell others giving God the glory. 


Let's face it - there are certain circumstances that we may see ourselves going through, that can cause us to feel that God isn't there any more. Either He's forgotten us, He's busy somewhere else or He just isn't there. But that's never the case. 


1 John 4:16-19 tells us : 


“We know how much God loves us, and we have put our trust in his love. God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them. And as we live in God, our love grows more perfect. So we will not be afraid on the day of judgment, but we can face him with confidence because we live like Jesus here in this world. Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love. We love each other because he loved us first.


God is always there for us because He loves us and will never leave us. I once heard this - I'm sorry I can't remember where - but I loved it. 


Instead of saying "but what if..." start the sentence with "even if..." and finish it with "God is enough". 


What if I lose my job?
Even if I lose my job, God is enough. 
What if he doesn't like me? 
Even if he doesn't like me, God is enough. 
What if we don't have the money to get by? 
Even if we don't have the money to get by, God is enough. 


It changes everything because it puts our focus on our Creator, the One who loves us and has everything we need. And guess what - no matter what, God always provides what you need when you need it. 


So when things don't go my way, as they often don't, my desire is to turn it around, focus on God, and find my silver lining. And above all 


🎵Rise, shine and give God the glory glory! 🎵


Keep shining xx 

Monday, 29 May 2017

I am adventurous...

To be adventurous is to be willing to take risks or to try out new methods, ideas, or experiences. So, am I adventurous? Not really! 



I like everything to be exactly as it is, was and always should be. I'm willing to change things up a little, but not too much. Take my job, for example. I am a classroom assistant, but instead of working 1-to-1 with a special needs child, I am a general CA, which means I stay in the same classroom with the same teacher. Always. 


I love the routine-ness of it and the fact that, after 2 and a half years, I'm finally getting to grips with our curriculum and know what comes next or what craft comes with which topic etc. I just love the thought that I will always be prepared and not have to adjust to a new teacher and their methods each year as a class moves up the school. 


But as I thought about this email this morning, I started to think about whether I should be satisfied to be safe in my life. 


Where school is concerned I'm VERY happy being safe!! But, I would love to be a little more adventurous in my home life. This is something that has been on my mind as I started this challenge as I'm very boring at home! I would love to shock the boys one day and so something outrageous with them! 


So I'm going to think of some mini-adventures to do with the family this summer. We are all off from the start of July until the end of August  (roughly) and I want to please them and for them to actually enjoy my company this year. 


I'll be making myself a little list - places to visit (like the Giants Causeway), things to play (like mini golf or bowling), trips to go on (like to the beach or zoo) and memories to make. No doubt I'll have some posts on it before the summer ends! 


But why am I not adventurous? Why do I tend to stick to safe and boring activities like board games or movie nights at home? 


Well as you may have realised, I have 4 kids. They are all boys and 2 or them are now taller than me so they aren't that 'wee' any more. But up until now I have been a little scared to go and do things with them. 


Don't get me wrong - when my husband is at home we do lots of things with the boys - but that's two adults and 4 kids. I hate to admit it, but I tend to not go anywhere if I have all 4 on my own. 


That's a horrible thing to write. But I'll tell you why. I have always been scared that I wouldn't be able to look after them all, or that one of them would get hurt, or that I'd mess up, or they would misbehave... I was just too scared to try. 


The first time I did take all four of them on an outing we went to the Marble Arch Caves, outside Enniskillen in County Fermanagh. It was a lovely trip and we made it back safely and in one piece!! We even managed to have a great time! But I was so scared the whole way through - as if I could mess up everything by not being in control. 


But then I have to remember one very important thing... 



God has blessed me with a loving husband and four great children and guess what I've found out - He loves them all even more than I do. 


In fact He loves then so much He has better plans for each of their wee lives than I could ever begin to imagine. And He loves them so much He had counted every single hair on their heads! 


So that's why I should be able to go on my mini-adventures this summer and enjoy every minute of making memories with my boys. 


Because God has me, my cares, my worries and my family safe in His hands. 


Keep shining xx 

Friday, 26 May 2017

My journey

Well, here I am, half way through this amazing journey. I can't believe it! And then I realised that I hadn't actually introduced where I was getting prompts from, or who was running the challenge. 

One day, about 3 weeks ago, I saw an advert on Facebook for a 30 day challenge to help you 'Be brave'. 

Now I'm not exactly wanting to be brave as such but it looked interesting enough for me to click on and check out the website. 

The website is called "Intention Inspired" and it's found at 


and every morning they send you an email for that day's challenge. In the email you get a 'brave act'  - like doing an act of kindness, being more aware of your surroundings or standing like a superhero (and yes I did that one too!!!) 


You then get a couple of quotes, some words of affirmation, a little video and then the journal prompts. 

Now, this isn't a Christian site or challenge - but because God is at the centre of my life, I have taken the prompts and used them as you have been reading - trying to incorporate God into my journey. 

But my main journey here is to grow closer in my walk with God, identify areas of my life and my walk that need work and think about some of the past issues taking root in my head which I've never really dealt with. 


In regards to that end, I've been going to Christian counselling for a couple of months now and it has been a real eye-opener. I originally didn't want to go as I thought once I started opening up and exploring the inside of me, that I'd start to cry and never stop. (I am a very emotional person at the best of times!) 

And to be honest there have been a lot of sessions where I've literally gurned my way through. It's emotionally exhausting! But so so good. And I have so much more to explore. 

It's been a very interesting couple of months and I can't wait to see what happens next. But it's also very scary, when you open yourself up and start to think about the beliefs you hold and realise that some are completely wrong. It's all those lies we tell ourselves! 

Anyway, I'll be back tomorrow with the next prompt. 
Keep shining xx 

Thursday, 25 May 2017

May the Lord bless you...

So today's prompt in my little challenge is making me think a lot! But unfortunately it's all too personal to share with you guys! 

So today, instead, I wanted to leave you with my verse for today (from the wonderful You Version Bible app). 

‘May the Lord bless you and protect you. May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you. May the Lord show you his favor and give you his peace.’'
‭‭Numbers‬ ‭6:24-26‬





Wednesday, 24 May 2017

Ambitious??

I am not very ambitious. I don't have any great plans - they have all kinda gone a little pear-shaped! So I really didn't think I had much to say today. 


But then I read this definition of the word and thought about it a little more. 


AMBITIOUS: having or showing a strong desire and determination to succeed.


I may not be ambitious in the way the world sees ambition - going from one job to the next, climbing the ladder, improving your salary and lifestyle as you go... 


But when it comes to a drive to succeed I'm definitely there! When I set my mind on something I can definitely focus on it and have a strong determination to succeed - whether it's last summer when we finally cleared the garage, or the last couple of months when I've been chatting to a wonderful lady to help me get more organised and get routines I can use. 


Like the little girl with the curl in the middle of her forehead, when I'm good I'm very good (at focusing and going for it that is) but when I'm bad I'm horrid! (I've already admitted to my lazy streak ☹️) 


So when I read my verse for today I thought it perfectly apt. 




I long for my heart and God's will to be perfectly in sync, knowing that He will give me the desires of my heart when they match His will for my life. 


And so, as I continue along our blogging journey, instead of being ambitious work-wise, I am seeking to be ambitious in my walk with God and in the goals I have set - to lose some weight and to blog through the journey. 


As Frances of Assisi said - 


"Start by doing what’s necessary; then do what’s possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible."


Keep shining xx 

Tuesday, 23 May 2017

Moving on...

Today's prompt was to think about something that you have felt unable to move forward from, and then think about one simple step you could take to move on from it... 


A very interesting one. I've a few things in the course of my life that I've struggled with - most a bit too personal to share unfortunately - but one thing you just have to look at me to see is my struggle with my weight. 


I have been a binge overeater and an emotional eater for nearly all of my adult life. The last time I remember being 'thin' was a memory I have of getting a new dress at uni. It was short (I wore it with thick black tights) with long sleeves and was lovely. The one thing I thought was hilarious was the guys in our group asking me where the other half of my belt was when I arrived warming it! It really wasn't that short - just seemed like that since I was used to wearing really long skirts!! It was a size 10. And yet back then, I thought I was big. 


Of only we could go back to the time we thought we were fat! 


Even when I got married I was up to a size 14/16, and gaining weight having after 4 kids, it just decided to stick around. 


I was very good at maintaining a weight while I was binging - not through bulimic methods, but by managing to eat very little on days when I wasn't binging. I knew how to be good - I just lost it at certain times and went mad. 


Now when I talk about binging I'm talking about eating a lot of food in a very short space of time - like I could eat  a packet of 4 Dairy Milks, a packet of Fifteens, a couple of chocolate eclair (the buns not the sweets!), a multipack of crisps, a packet of salted nuts and maybe a bag of sports mix - all within a short period of time and without actually raising any of it. 


It always was an automatic thing, and as I said, completely tasteless. But it happened again and again and I couldn't stop it. I've even been known to bake because we had nothing to eat in our house. Or nip to the garage just to buy binge food and then hide it in the car. 


And even though I know I am putting myself at risk each and every day, I've not addressed it enough to make me take action. I'm still fat - as fat as I've ever been - and I need to get healthy. For all of our sakes. 


Why can't I move forward? I think a big part of this answer has to be my perception of being thin. I have always thought I'll be much happier when I'm thin, or that life will look differently when I'm thin, or people will like me more when I'm thin. But the other side of that coin is very much 'what if that's wrong'... 


At the moment I'm 'happy' being the fat girl who makes fun of herself and makes everyone laugh - whether because I'm funny or out of pity, who cares - but if I haven't got that anymore and I'm assuming that things will be ok, what if they aren't. What if I become someone obsessed with their looks right weight? What if I end up not being someone people are going to still have a laugh with? What if things change for the worse? 


It's these 'what if' questions that keep me here and I need to move past them. So here is my step for tomorrow. Tomorrow I will not eat any chocolate or crisps, and will only drink water. 


Hopefully that's a small enough step that I will actually do it, but as we're learning, every step counts. 


My verse for today was


This is what the Lord says—the Lord who made the earth, who formed and established it, whose name is the Lord: Ask me and I will tell you remarkable secrets you do not know about things to come.”

Jeremiah 33:2-3 


and I really do trust that as I delve into this deeper, God will help me to find the way I need to go, and reveal the secrets that I need to know. He knows all - all I need to do is trust Him. 


Keep shining xx 


Monday, 22 May 2017

Letter to my younger self...

Today's prompt was to write a letter to yourself... so here goes... 

Dear Tanya


This is a wee note from your future self wanting to let you know everything is going to be ok. At the moment you are struggling. I can see it in your eyes as you stare back at me in the mirror. I can see it in the way you justify everything to yourself - how you manage to keep going while everything inside you dies is amazing and you deserve to see that. 


Right now you are going through what will be one of the darkest times in your life. You are a pregnant woman with a toddler - and with that comes emotional turmoil as it is, but you are panicking because there is a darkness inside you. 


You think you are crazy. You think you can't cope with being a mother. You think you would be better off dead. But you'd be wrong. So very wrong. 


That husband you love, fight with and then love again, will still love you and cherish you 12 years down the line... 


That little boy who you are tucking into bed and snuggling with each night is going to turn into a wonderful teenager who loves God and is an amazingly polite young man...


That baby you carry will turn into one of the kindest and most thoughtful of boys and will make you proud every single day...


And then there are the two little twinkles in your eye that you haven't even - can't even - consider yet. Oh Tanya - they are so handsome and such good boys...


Yes - you are going to end up with four amazing sons who you love with all your heart and would do anything for. The best four gifts ever. 


I know it's still hurts right now. And it still overwhelms you. And I know you just want the pain to stop. 


But there's a way that is far better than anything you are thinking. God has you in His hand and trust me when I tell you He always will do. He has come through for us time after time after time and He never leaves us or makes us feel unworthy. 


He gives and gives and gives again. He lifts us up so many times and truly does carry us on eagles wings. We love Him more now and understand His love for us so much better but we still fail Him sometimes. 


But we are learning. And as we learn we grow to be more like Him. 


Life is good. Now (for me) you have a great job, a wonderful family and amazing friends. And guess what - you made it out the other side of that darkness with a huge smile on your face. 


So I want you to remember who you are. You are the daughter of the King of Kings. You are a child of God. You are beautiful, brave, loving, cheerful, caring, encouraging and unique. And God loves you more than ever. 


Your body is not your own - it was bought for a price on the tree of Calvary. You can do this - you just need to trust in Him and let Him take control. He will carry you through. 


You are amazing. And I'm so glad to be you. 

Loving you as God does

Tanya xxx 

Sunday, 21 May 2017

Facing our fears...

Today's challenge is talking about fear and finding the courage to investigate our fears and try to eliminate them by understanding them and changing them. So here goes! 


A recent fear that I would like to overcome …


I've been thinking very hard about this one and I've come up with two fears that I have. I fear that time is passing too quickly and that nothing is staying the same, and I fear that everything stays the same and nothing changes... and yes I'm very aware that they seem total opposites! Let me explain my thought process. 


I have 4 amazing kids who are now 15, 12, 10 and 8. Even though I often struggle in my journey in the land of motherhood, I have wonderful memories of when they were little, when they hit each of the big milestones and all the years in between. In fact the other day we sat and watched back at some of the old video clips we'd taken and laughed at squeaky voices, baby faces and the onset of teenage moodiness! 


But often I fear that I'm missing out and not actually getting to enjoy them in the here and now because there's always so much going on. We're always running about, trying to get home-works done, dinner made, activities attended and an early enough bedtime! I sometimes feel like they are right here in front of me but I'm missing them.  


And what am I planning to do about it? Well - this summer instead of going away for a holiday as such (we're going camping instead!!), we are going to spend time with the boys being tourists in our own town/country and I'm planning on giving each of them time with mummy (whether they like it or not!!!).


I want to be right in the middle of their lives because these are precious years and I want them to remember their childhood with fondness and love, just like I do. 



But the second part of my fear was that everything stays the same and nothing changes. Let me explain this - as I've mentioned before in this challenge, I struggle with laziness, procrastination, finishing things I've started, mental health issues and a messy house syndrome! I long for things to change - for me to grow into my life and actually make the differences that need to be made for me to be the person I'm meant to be, and to be happy in it. But at the moment it's not happening. 


That's part of the reason I took in this challenge. I am trying to spend time with God as I think through the daily prompts and process my fears / actions. I want things to be amazing. I want my house to be spotless and running like clockwork. I want my kids and hubby to feel truly loved. I want to know God more and grow in Him. I want to lose weight so that I am the healthiest and fittest me possible. 


But that's a lot of work and most times it's overwhelming. And so I fear that by the time I get to 50 nothing will have changed and I'll still have my list of things I want to happen. 


So what am I going to do with this? Well, for starters, I'm in the process of getting organised and getting a daily/weekly routine that fits us as a family. I've now rewritten it 3 times, and I will continue to tweak it until it works. And then I'll move onto the next area and the next - one step at a time - knowing that every little helps and every step is a step closer to what I want. 



I'll keep you informed as we go along and let you know if I ever get it sorted!!! 


Keep shining xx 

Saturday, 20 May 2017

I am vulnerable

I didn't think this challenge could get any more difficult but wow is today's hard!!! 


I am vulnerable... 


The definition of being vulnerable is "capable of or susceptible to being wounded or hurt."


For most of us, it means opening up to people, letting them see the real me and hoping they still like me. It's a very hard thing to do. 


Don't get me wrong - I realise that in writing my blog I am making myself vulnerable, but that's online, and even when people I know read it, most wouldn't talk about it so it's still kind of hidden. I don't know who reads it and who doesn't so the fear of rejection isn't there. 


And we are all scared of rejection. I wrote a whole blog post on rejection this time last year, but ironically I've not posted it yet - in case it's too vulnerable! 


We don't want people to be able to see all the parts we hide - because we don't want them to think less of us. 


But we really need to for a number of reasons. 



Our Pastor is doing a brilliant series in church at the moment on being real in our relationships - especially within the church. He is helping us to open up, be vulnerable with each other and love one another. John 13:34 actually commands us to "love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another". 


But vulnerability also helps us in our relationship with God. If we have good friends that we can really open up to, they can help us grow. James 5:16 tells us to "confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed." 


This doesn't mean that our friends can heal us or get rid of our sin, but what they can do is pray, encourage us and help us to make the right decisions as we go along our daily lives. I am blessed truly by having friends like this. They allow me to open up and they allow me a safe place to be vulnerable. 


And yet there are still so many parts of my life that I keep hidden for so long that I would be terrified to let them out. 


This summer I took a really big step on this and was truly blessed by some amazing friends. 


I am a hoarder and suffice to say I had a huge problem in my garage. I don't let people see inside there - like never - but this summer I let my best friend, my sister and another wonderful friend in to my garage and let them see me. And do you know what? They saw, they loved, they helped and we conquered!! I now have a play room in my garage where piles of stuff used to be. 



Being vulnerable is good. 


But most of all, being vulnerable helps us to learn the following in real life - 


"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
1 Corinthians 12:9-10


God truly comes through loud and clear when we trust Him with our vulnerabilities and weaknesses. He gives us the strength and power to do what we need to do, allowing us to truly glorify Him in everything. 


I don't know about you, but this definitely helps me be vulnerable. Because deep inside I know God has me. And even if the worst happens and people can't handle the real me - God always can and always will love me for the real me. And to be that's the sweetest gift of all. 


Now... there are two more questions in the 'prompts' and I'll share them here - but to be honest I'm scared of looking inwards to answer these. 


  • In what area of your life are you afraid of being rejected?
  • How have I been limiting myself by avoiding the fear of being rejected?


They are definitely going to need some thinking about! So I may share my answers at the end of my 30 days... 


Keep shining xx 




Friday, 19 May 2017

I am capable...

Today's topic is being capable. It's thinking about the many small steps that bring about big changes, and how amazing and how capable it makes you feel. 


That's the idea anyway. 


In my life so far I don't think I've achieved much. I was blessed with a wonderful family and got to go to a great university but when I got there it all fell to pieces. I started one course, failed an exam (an important one!) and changed to a different one. 


Unfortunately for the next 3 years my attention was elsewhere, and I ended up coming out of uni with a pass degree - yes it's a degree but really - it's not worth the paper it's written on. No one wants a pass degree. All it does is show you went to uni and messed around for 3 years. 


I had an offer to do a primary school PGCE at Coleraine - but they don't take passes. 


I had an offer to go away to England and do it - but guess what they don't take... passes. 


So I went back to working in the shop I'd grown up working in, and stayed there - not even going through the ranks - just staying as a sales girl. 


Then we got married and went to work with a ministry organisation. Again I didn't really have a place - I was working with my husband, raising our boys and then doing some actual ministry work with some ladies... but I don't feel like I achieved anything. 


And finally I managed to get through my Classroom Assistants course - and get a job that I love in P1. 


And yes I feel like I achieved something getting my job and being able to go to work in a place I love, but apart from that, there's nothing great about my life in this area. 


No big fears that I worked towards and no big things I overcame to achieve my dreams. Nothing. 


Now I know that I'm extremely blessed, and I know that there is a lot of wonderful things about my life - don't get me wrong - but this topic is achievements, being capable of things and working towards goals. 


And unfortunately I don't really think I've done that. Someone recently asked me what I'd done with my life and to be honest I struggled to answer.  


So I'm struggling with this one. It's very thought provoking. I know ultimately God has a plan for my life - but I sometimes feel like I've messed up and missed it - or that I've let it pass me by without even seeing it. 


Thankfully the second prompt is a lot easier!! 


Who made you feel good this week? What did they say?


This is a wee short one - not because I don't have people who have made me feel good today, but because I'm surrounded by wonderful people and it's way too personal to share on here. 


I have a wonderful family who build me up and help me grow, a wonderful set of work mates who are an amazing team, and extraordinary friends who love me. They all help me - whether it's a wee timely text, a hug or a word of encouragement and I couldn't do life without them. In this I truly have won the jackpot and I can only pray that I am as encouraging to them as they are to me. 


So there we go! 

Keep shining xx 


Wednesday, 17 May 2017

So far so good...

Today's journal prompt is to reassess how we're doing in our challenge and preparing for the next couple of days. 


I have 24 days left in my 30-day goal to... lose 10lbs.  


Which means within two weeks, I need to... lose 4 lbs. 


Which means in a week, I need to... lose 2 lbs. 


Which means in the next three days, I need to... eat clean and exercise. 


To hit that 3-day goal, today I need to... plan a menu and get my DVDs out. 


This is actually a great task to do to every so often to keep me on track - I get overwhelmed thinking about 2 or 3 weeks worth of cleaning eating and exercising, yet writing out a menu for the next couple of days is entirely doable, and getting out my DVDs and - surprise surprise - actually trying one (!!!) is also entirely doable! 


I think when I'm trying to do challenges, or change things in my life, I tend to go big and then fail. So often it's a big "let's do this" followed by nothing. In reality as Tesco adverts tell us - "every little helps!" What I do each and every day makes all the difference. 




Recently I was challenged to think about it this way

  • I usually wake up late... but then I usually end up rushing around and being late for work 😕
  • I usually eat too many sweets and chocolate for my tea break... but I usually am overweight 🙁
  • I usually end up having a nap when I come home from school because I'm not sleeping right at night... but I usually am overtired and that perpetuates my lazy streak so nothing gets done ☹️
  • I usually go to bed and read or play games on my phone... but I usually don't sleep well and am therefore extra tired. 😩


Do you see what I mean? Every decision I make each and every day has a huge knock on affect and at the moment it is in a very negative way. So from tomorrow (or right now!!) I aim to make my usually into something positive - shifting my habits to become something to help achieve my goals. 



Hopefully we'll see some real difference as we go along! 

Keep shining xx  


Tuesday, 16 May 2017

The Voice of Truth

Today's prompt was to think about the negative voices we hear, and consider if they have any use or anything that we can learn from them.


Why do my voices of ‘not enough’ exist? What are they trying to tell me?


All around us, right from childhood we are surrounded by voices telling us we are not enough. From the child whose daddy leaves home (and her) behind, to the teenager who is always considered the 'big girl' at youth group, to the young adult constantly trying to keep up with what everyone else is doing... we all struggle with voices that tell us we aren't enough - whether it's not good enough or smart enough or thin enough or sexy enough or Christian enough. 

 

A couple of examples from my life : 

  • I struggle with the thought that I'm not smart enough or in a good enough job because I didn't fulfil my dream of becoming a teacher. 
  • While I have struggled with my weight for most of my adult life, I still hate going clothes shopping because most stores aren't there to help you feel 'enough'. Instead we're fed images of super skinny women who would look good in a bin bag. 
  • All I have to do is look around my house to see that I'm not good enough at cleaning or housekeeping or cooking - all things I should have 'down' by now. 


In her book 'Core Lies' Sarah Mae explains it like this - 


"A core lie is something we believe that resides so deep down inside of us that it has almost become a part of our personality." 


We believe them so much that they become part of us. 


But it doesn't have to be like this. 


There's a Casting Crowns song which is beautiful and especially relevant to this topic. 





The voice of God's truth tells us such a different story. The devil (and his snarky wee voice) is there to steal, kill and destroy (John 10:10). But God's Word is here to heal, give life to, bless and teach us (2 Timothy 3:16). 


No matter how many times we argue with the voices we can still end up believing them instead of God. And it steals all the joy out of our lives. 


So next time we hear the negative voices - reach  for your Bible and read about how wonderful you actually are - straight from the lips and heart of your Creator. 


Keep shining xx